Hisashiburi da na....
I didn't stop blogging. I just haven't had any idea to express in English so I often use my other blog to express my feelings in Indonesian. Besides, no one reads this blog anyway, and I have some other things to do since I'm doing my master program at the moment at the Australian National University.
My life in Australia has been fun in general. It's too fun that sometimes I wish I could move permanently to this country, marry an Australian, and change my nationality (seriously). Lately Indonesia has made me feel disappointed. I don't know. It's just too much for me. The politics, the people (who are getting more rude everyday, you'll know what I mean if you live in Jakarta), the entertainment (which getting worse everyday. I can't even call it entertainment), the environment (which is getting more and more polluted as more and more people are getting more environmental-unfriendly), the education (which is also getting worse since too many people seem to allow plagiarism, cheating, or anything opposing the academic ethics), etcetera, etcetera. So it's so much better here, in Australia. And I consider Australian people are some of the luckiest people in the world. They should be thankful for that. LOL.
I really envy the fact that they got a surprising economic development (beating the USD currency is not an easy task), political stability (well, there ARE problems in this country. but the government still can handle them neatly), world-class education (lucky me, being taught by some Australia's best academicians), beautiful environment and nature (and people still care to protect the environment), and not to mention, they also have the nicest people in the capital city. I can't tell you enough how nice and friendly people in Canberra are. I shall say that they're one of God's better people. Even though some people might consider them as boring, but I've never been treated that nice by people in my own country.
But you know, sometimes you cannot have everything you ask for. There must be some things you cannot achieve. In my case, I've lost so many opportunities in this life. Sometimes it's because of me. Sometimes it's because of other people. But most of the time, it's simply because it is not meant to be. I believe in fate (even though some non-believers might call me too pessimistic), and sometimes good things don't happen and bad things happen because God wants it that way. Not because God hates us. But it's because it CAN'T NOT happen that way (I remember the Wierzbicka's NSM theory when I write this. LOL)
So I shall learn to accept the fate that I can only spend one year in Australia, and I have to find a suitable job and earn some money to repay my debts to my parents (they're the ones who pay my tuition fee because there's no scholarship for linguistics major. That's what I call "fate" anyway).
I still keep my love for linguistics, and I still dream to be a linguist. But it's gonna be tough, I know. I used to think that every dream should be pursued. But some dreams are just too far from reality. Being a linguist is not as easy as what everybody says. Especially when you live in Indonesia. A country with a wide range of variety of languages but only has a very few number of linguists compared to linguists from other countries. People in Indonesia don't appreciate linguistics as much as they do for economics. Not saying that I hate economics because of that. Only stating that I'm aware of this fact, and thus I know that I still have a very long and winding road to be a linguist.
Wish me luck, then. If no one does it, I'll wish luck for myself anyway. LOL.
